Loss

I knew one day I would experience what everyone else has. What I didn’t expect was the suddenness of it all. The weirdness of the procedure…the sense of calm one feels…I brought a bottle of Bacardi Gold and it’s close to half way…I’ve had moments of sudden sadness overcome me but yet I feel “happy”….”fine”…"everything will be okay"….life is about celebration and love….we have to tell each other we love each other more and more….the last time I saw my grandfather was 10 years ago…I was 21…young and bright eye…I thought I would have gone back to Guatemala by now but that wasn’t the case….I am sorry Papi, you didn’t get to meet Charlotte in person but I am glad seeing her in photo brought you much joy….my mom misses you terribly…she felt you…she heard you, viejo….My you be in peace where ever you are….may your soul rest and not wonder….may you guide us grandchildren in dealing with your children, papi…the pattern was there….guide us grandpa…protect us like you always had….we love you…I love you…you were my father and I am sorry I didn’t get to see you one last time…I will never forgive myself for that…..May your soul rest in peace…I light a candle in your memory….I will drink this shot in your memory….I will cry many more tears in the days and months to come…this birthday and Christmas will be a sad one….I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU…..
May your soul rest in peace, Papi Meme 12/25/25-11/30/11