Boredom

Boredom= when nothing you do brings you joy anymore.  I've been in my house now for almost 2 years. I got laid off once I found out I was pregnant and ever since I've been home doing the "house wife" thing. I LOVE being home with Charlotte but I really MISS working. I remember when I HATED working and all I ever did was wish to NOT be working, this why you should be careful what you wish for, you might just get it. My unemployment got extended yet again but with conditions. I MUST look for work and inform unemployment of where I went and what outcome I had; otherwise, I don't get my money for the week. I am forced to look for work and get out there to the grind. I am happy and sadden at the same time. I am happy because I might get job if I look hard enough and perhaps it will be decent job with decent pay and benefits. I am sadden because I won't be spending time with Charlotte. Yet, the way I see it is I will be able to provide for Charlotte and regain my sanity. 


I have so many plans and I want to implemented them already. I start school next month and I can't wait. I day dream about it all the time and this time around I will do what I am suppose to do. The Professors were wise to me my first semester. I was sorry to disappointment them but I promise myself this semester I will not fuck up. 


I know I will do what I have to do and I will do it well. I believe in two to three years time I will be where I want to be. I just have to be patient and believe in what I am doing and what I want to accomplish. One day at a time...one step at a time....good things always come to those who wait.